Trying Not To Be Bummed Out
I’m not sure why this came to mind yesterday, but it did. And I reacted the way I always do…by heading to Google to do some research.
Because I really am tired of being so exhausted. Yes, the supplementation is helping, but it’s not helping fast enough. So I suppose that’s what brought the memory to mind. The memory of my three gluten-free months last year. I remembered doing more things at some point, but couldn’t remember if it was the diet change that helped or not.
That sent me back to some older blogs on my website. It took awhile but apparently I gave up gluten-containing foods somewhere around August 2nd. On August 21st I noted that I might be feeling a little better, and was sometimes getting a little more sleep, but still felt more tired than ever on some days.
Then I scrolled slowly forward to find that on August 27 I spent the day driving around taking pictures for a book trailer. In two different cities a good thirty miles apart.
On September 5th I wrote that I was feeling ‘pretty darned good,’ and had been for three days. Even after getting too little sleep.
And finally, on September 27th, I said if I could never have bread or crackers again it was worth it…because the longer I was off gluten, the better I was feeling.
I didn’t find anything after that, but I know that in mid-October, I planned a bonfire for my mother’s birthday, something I hadn’t done for three years, mostly due to having my van totaled by a red-light runner on the highway for the first two. But I just felt too tired when it rolled around again.
But it was also that bonfire that convinced me to give up the gluten-free lifestyle. And the reason is so stupid. I do not like hot dogs, but at that point I was craving one so bad I couldn’t stand it. The only time I can tolerate them is either grilled, or roasted over a fire…until it’s pretty well blackened on the outside.
Apparently I’d convinced myself that I didn’t feel that much better (should have looked over the blogs, hmm?). Besides, gluten-free was a pain in the neck…and pretty expensive, too.
But I made the change back easily enough. No intestinal issues or nausea. Clearly I’m not Celiac. But the ever increasing fatigue indicates that I am probably at least a little gluten-intolerant.
Guess I’m going to take a few days to reacquaint myself with the fundamentals of the diet, stock up on some things, and spend that time pigging out on my favorite foods. Not that I’ll give them up entirely. If I decide I absolutely must have a hot dog…on a ‘real’ bun…I will. If I’m craving chicken stew with fluffy dumplings, I’ll have it. Just not very often.
And I’ll definitely be posting updates about how I’m feeling here. Hopefully between that, increasing the nutritional density of my diet, and the supplementation, things will begin moving in the right direction in a big hurry.
I found this video tonight and thought it was worth sharing.