Been a Long Week
I’m still feeling better as far as the Synthroid schedule goes (forgot to do the blood test again though). I’ve been doing horrible on getting to the pool (I have a list of excuses-legit and not so legit-as long as my arm). Still doing the coconut oil and some supplements (gotta do better!).
Two things, though, are giving me bigger problems than anything else. First, I thought I’d be over the worst of the whole electronic cigarette thing by now. It’s been nearly 2 1/2 months, and I’m STILL tempted to order more supplies sometimes. Only the fact that I don’t get out of breath as easily is keeping me on task. But I am going through a lot more nicotine gum.
Second on the list is the gluten-free lifestyle. I’ve been totally resenting that for a few weeks now. Yes, it was very nice that the Pamela’s bread dough worked out so nicely for pizza, but no matter how much I tried to convince myself that it was the same…it’s not. It’s better than the other gluten-free options, but it’s NOT the same. I’m still on that whole raspberry Bismark kick…I just want one SO bad…
And I finally said the heck with it. I decided I was taking this weekend and having a gluten orgy. I am going to eat several of the foods I’ve been missing like crazy…including real pizza, real biscuits, real french toast, and real whatever I want.
Hopefully it won’t backfire, but I figured a controlled cheat was probably my best bet. I was afraid if I didn’t, I’d completely throw in the towel like I did about this same stage last year. If it works, I’ll plan on this periodically until I get better, more permanent control of it.
If I give myself permission sometimes, I might not be as tempted (that’s what I’m telling myself anyway).